Tuesday, January 25, 2011

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   It started off slow.You choose - that is how it should be.I should not be selecting.We were the only customers @ Megamart around 9 PM yesterday evening as my wife was buying me my birthday dress. After a snag of 40-45 minutes of slow repeated circles around the shop,  momentum picked up in leaps and bounds as I tried on a green formal shirt and a black corduroy pants.Need to go home quickly as my parents would be waiting for dinner.
    Need to buy a cake too.Not many shops open as the clothe shopping ate away the working hours of all bakeries around.Finally we chanced on the shutter closing of one bakery where we rushed in and bought one pineapple cake.
    Albeit it was a buy 3-get 4 offer, I dont remember ever getting a whopping 7 pieces of clothing out of the blue in an hours' time.Even for my marriage, I had taken 3 sets or so!.If we invite Sherlock, he might be able to find some 'draws' in say the new uniform sets at the beginning of a new school year.
     It was embarassing to get into the house - this does not happen even in Hindi movies!Well to justify myself, I was running short of trousers and three of the remaining ones were of the same color.
    We cut the cake at night, Muthu dangerously swirling the knife around.
    
      On the birthday , watched 'ThoovanathumbikaL' yet another time to add to the celebration.Felt nostalgic and very emotional.As tears streamed down my cheeks due to my undue attachment to the characters in the movie, I struggled at points where there was nothing on the screen to justify myself if someone should ask me.For e.g., when the song 'Onnaam raagam paadi' was being played, I was still all tears jerked by some earlier scene.I felt like the Brendon Fraser in 'George of the jungle' where in one scene, he looks at the sunset and says ' Look .. the sun is setting..' and cries. At this moment , I am reminded of the great words that Binoy Balan had once shared. " For me, if a movie shakes me emotionally , it is a worthwhile movie".He was contradicting against the movie experience that leaves the viewer with joy.And I experienced this today morning and agreed completely.
     Unfortunately, today I got a little annoyed at my flat's CRM team who were supposed to be working on the minor modifications in my flat when they asked me for the flat key so that they could start the work.The explanation that came out was that 'they thought that the flat number was 3016 and not 4016'.Wonder whether they addressed the 4016' issues in 3016.
      Facebook had brought notice of my birthday to the office folks and I treated them with Choco pies available at our 'Juice Junction' stall.
      Back home , mumma's special 'Paal paayasam' that took me back to the kitchen of the school days' home. As the clock strikes 12 PM marking the end of my birthday , I close this diary note .. 
     

Friday, November 5, 2010

Wish you a happy Diwali

  This Diwali is special as it Coincides with our fourth wedding anniversary.As the bangalore streets come alive with rich and prosperous pattakke celebrations,Sidhdhique,our neighbor's son gave Niya a jolt with his pottas gun that made a shot sound as opposed to recorded gun music that he usually flaunts.

    Bangalore has lot of money judging by the uninhibited celebrations from all around.

   I was hoping to go for a small unplanned outing as part of our anniversary celebrations but the fever, sore throat,chest congestion, fatigue , head ache and cough pinned me to my bed in my sweater.

   I watch helplessly as my weekend is slipping past through my hands inconsequential.I wanted to go out and do some anniversary shopping - shelved due to sick health.Going out is not an option - so how about seeing a movie at home - watching TV for long time gives you a bad headache.Can't read a book either.Can't play with my daughter either as she is not sick.Our maid has prepared good-looker chicken curry but my doctor has instructed me a mild diet.Wanted to buy some sweets - again dietary restriction.

   The only solace is the sickness itself - an escape from routine.And if it really persists, may be a sick leave...

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Angsana office trip - April 17 , 2010

An outing had been planned across our office sub-departments which had got postponed multiple times and materialized yesterday.As my wife keeps complaining about how my driving is going from rash to rasher on a very consistent basis , almost everyday as I drop her to office , I felt very apprehensive of driving with office folks , some of whom I was not very familiar with. Got up early , washed my car and started off with Sunil (EEM Windows) and Bibhu , picking them up from BDA complex.
Too much of consciousness took away some of the fun off the driving but still enjoyed the drive to the first stopover point - Esteem mall where the rest of the folks joined in and we had our breakfasts in one of those stand-and-eat south-indian hotels.Mukesh Goyal had to go back home as his wife's viral fever was not subsiding.There were six cars or so - Mukesh Singh , Vamsi , Chandra , an indica taxi , Kalyan and myself.We followed Mukesh's car gingerely as we were pretty unsure of the route creating traffic jams in the way as my car was on second line and had to suddenly pull over as Mukesh Singh stopped for route enquiry.Once the directions were clear , it was easy to find the place and the route from breakfast to resort was a short and slow one.
Angsana was a prestige-group resort built using karinkallu granite with orange kerala style tiles.We parked our cars , some in the ground and some in the parking lot. There was one more car to arrive - Pradeep's which was not chained up at the restaurant.As we lulled , waiting for the car, a few of us kicked football around. It was a very novel experience - just kicking a football around!Devender shone as his experience as a district player as well as his passion and longing for the game manifested in his heartful and skilful jugleries with the ball.
We then went inside the resort and waited in the hall for Pradeep's group.A strange welcome drink disappointed us and various flavors of discontent arose from various team members.Welcome drink also made a place in the feedback report during bill payment.Pradeep and team joined soon and we were off to the cricket ground.While the teams were being formed , Bibhu , Sunil (Windows) , myself played with the football.It felt good to be able to have some control over where you are kicking the ball.The teams were set captained by Chandra and Mukesh and it was a ten-over game.I stood in the sun umpiring with six stones in my right hand to represent the six balls left in the over.Ace batsman Sai exited on first ball as he hit on his leg with the bat and had the pain all through the trip.Dipesh batted well scoring quite a few boundaries.Girls in the group also participated with under-arm bowling , no stumping privileges.It was a sabko-batting milega game and I got my chance as well.The first ball I hit a boundary , and many further balls presented great opportunities which I tried ambitiously to hit major strikes to be frustrated by my consistent inability to connect bat with the ball!. Chandra came in in the last over and started with a huge straight six.
Amidst all this , we had won ourself a good score.Mukesh's team was unable to meet the challenge and we won by 20+ runs.Devender played well from their team sportively hitting boundaries.On my bowling chance , I could throw all the balls straight and my second bowl saw Kalyan's catch dismiss Devender.I dont remember any major strikes from the Mukesh's team and we were the clear winners of the match.
Next item was all water.Water in the pool/water in the bottle.Yes - it is time for the booze party.Booze has become de-facto in the software industry.A spirited water polo game provided lot of color and life to the pool-time. I had not planned for a swimming session as I dont know swimming and had not brought the necessary attire.So , myself and Deepak Gowda used the time to play squash.True to what has been heard ,squash is arguably the most tiring of sports as a ball with apologetic bounce forces the players to run helter-skelter to hit the ball before the ball slumps.We could hardly play 5-10 minutes before taking cool water breaks.We had a good time all the same.Immediately after , we briefly contemplated buying trunks and jumping in the pool and settled for tennis rackets instead.This one was more of an ordeal as our inexperience saw us serving from one court to another court and continuing the game in the second court! In the mid-noon sun, ridiculous tennis did not last long.We retired and joined the pool group.
I kept sober amidst kinley temptations where Kinley mineral water bottles had some smirnoff mixed.Chandra played the entertainer here aligning his performance with the vodka blessing.I took out my digicam and captured the eager male swimming models - Kalyan , Pradeep , Prakash etc as they posed generously to the camera.Also , the spirited water polo game found a place in the digicam videos.As I knew everyone in the group , I could related how everyone was playing with what I knew about them personally and there were hardly any surprises.It was a good match to watch
Satish/Lakshmi had ordered one set of starters which I promptly laid my hands on and took one piece each.Later , Devender requested for more starters and these reached us at dessert time of lunch!As there was a huge set of items against the leftover appetite , I marketed the starters in the various table circles where we were having our lunch.The buffet lunch was below par and I did not have a lot of appetite anyway.
Next , we had the boring chit game in the lawn where each of us picked chits and performed what was written on it.The chit instructions were unanimously disliked.However,all of us had a good relaxing time lying down on each other in the lawn.Next in line was the "FullHousie" game.Satish and myself gave the slip and played a game of lawn tennis.This one was a much better one as Satish had some exposure and I was doing my part trying to learn.For energy reasons, we stopped the game at one set score of 2-6 ,myself losing.Where I was not even able to serve and cross the net,I was trying to serve aces!Controlled and slow serves from Sathish were met with smart forehand passing shots except that the net came in the way.. This was the best game experience in the day.It was like getting past the compilation errors with a new project.
When we reached the lawn back , a game of slogan-product quiz was in progress.This was going well and had cent percent participation and Kalyan performing the quiz master role to perfection.Then came the daily favorite pastime - chahe office me ho , chaahe jail me , chaahe resort me.That is right - it is tea time!We waited for a long time at the tea tables having seen the tea flasks and cups outside.After twenty minutes or so, we were to realise that tea would not be served at the table.Tea was really good and I had two cups - almost.
Once tea was done , we waited at the lawn for the bill and the girls in our team to arrive who were apparently taking a dab at the indoor games - TT et al.Mukesh was pretty much decided on leaving without paying but by the time the bill arrived.Returns were quickly planned and the ride back started.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Resolution

Well ,it is new year time and hence "Resolution" is a cached word and hence titling the blog thus.It feels beautiful when your mind is fully absorbed on to some activity.I did a few minutes of thoughtful photography of some pot flowers in the garden, trying to give the best shot possible , framing best , making the flowers look as beautiful as I feel they are.The involvement has tuned my mind and I can feel a certain tension in me.As opposed to the usual nonchalance and guilt of non-existence , this feels different but non necessarily better.


But it is definite that only when mind concerts thus can any worthy creation would happen.And it feels good too.I keep falling back on the work that I had done years back to feel good about myself.The sincere photography that I had committed myself to years back still offer me solace though they are not great photos.The reason being that recently there have been no attempts.It is important to maintain and sharpen your strenghts , else you die off.Ofcourse , you can get born again but you die off and you need to regain.


Do I really have me heart at work?I feel happier to have had a relaxing day at work than a fulfilling day at work.I am encouraged by surmounting the challenges at work.But I am not dying to do my best at work.Lack of application is something that I have been cribbing about for atleast the past 20 years and the reason is what ?


Why is it that I do not apply myself the best at life?Because I am lazy.I am a victim of sloth.Sloth sits like a huge frog over me watching me making sure that I take it easy.The moment I wake up, I am pushed down.I know and have experienced that a few minutes of physical exercise would make me feel godd all day but I just wouldn't do it.I know that my life would improve multifold if I kill Sloth.


Is new year a good reason to resolve to kill sloth?No , new year is not a reason at all.You should kill sloth eitherway?There is a lack of conviction that I feel.Are you ok if you lose all your money and are forced into the street , with no food to live with?Theoretically,I can see me getting accustomed to this as well.But ofcourse I atleast agree that this would be a low life and something I would not profess or strive for.

All I am saying is I can get along even in much worse conditions but that should not mean to say that I should not strive for better possibilities.Demands at work are fulfilled as the organization would ensure that.What one needs to consciously work towards is to enhance life outside work - Family life , Bigger family life , social life , inner aspirations , art etc.

Read more , do more photography , make one movie , make some money , pay off the housing loan.

Saturday, October 18, 2008

Life - Programmed

  Take two blank sheets of paper.Take any two humans in the world.Assume you have no understanding of what a human is.Note down each and every attribute of both the human beings.Now , if a percentage comparison is done between the sheets , what would be the similariy percentage.Above 95 % atleast??  Does a particular person's individuality contribute more to him than the basics( his systems ) . I doubt it.How is it that this consistency is maintained?Why is it that this consistency is maintained? 
What is a question?What is understanding? Animals think too.Do plants think?Plants probably don't think.The cells within them react to conditions like sunlight.Take inanimate objects , a pile of stones , push the stone in the bottom , the pile falls over.There is no thought involved here.However , there is a consequence. For things to happen , thought is not required.Thought is not fundamental to nature.
Thought did not bring about the rivers , the mountains ,  the earth is not a product of thought and earth is a lot.It is the same old question that I am backtracking to.Why is it that there is a universe?I am not thinking about how it started.I am thinking why it started?
         There does not have to be a why to it?When I think about how life might have originated a, ll I am doing is recalling things taught to me at school , started with amoeba , micorscopic organisms and then the cell with the nucleus and then the tissue , invertebrates , vertebrates etc. Why this compelling urge to further life?Why is that all of us could not just be amoebae dividing themselves?