Well ,it is new year time and hence "Resolution" is a cached word and hence titling the blog thus.It feels beautiful when your mind is fully absorbed on to some activity.I did a few minutes of thoughtful photography of some pot flowers in the garden, trying to give the best shot possible , framing best , making the flowers look as beautiful as I feel they are.The involvement has tuned my mind and I can feel a certain tension in me.As opposed to the usual nonchalance and guilt of non-existence , this feels different but non necessarily better.
But it is definite that only when mind concerts thus can any worthy creation would happen.And it feels good too.I keep falling back on the work that I had done years back to feel good about myself.The sincere photography that I had committed myself to years back still offer me solace though they are not great photos.The reason being that recently there have been no attempts.It is important to maintain and sharpen your strenghts , else you die off.Ofcourse , you can get born again but you die off and you need to regain.
Do I really have me heart at work?I feel happier to have had a relaxing day at work than a fulfilling day at work.I am encouraged by surmounting the challenges at work.But I am not dying to do my best at work.Lack of application is something that I have been cribbing about for atleast the past 20 years and the reason is what ?
Why is it that I do not apply myself the best at life?Because I am lazy.I am a victim of sloth.Sloth sits like a huge frog over me watching me making sure that I take it easy.The moment I wake up, I am pushed down.I know and have experienced that a few minutes of physical exercise would make me feel godd all day but I just wouldn't do it.I know that my life would improve multifold if I kill Sloth.
Is new year a good reason to resolve to kill sloth?No , new year is not a reason at all.You should kill sloth eitherway?There is a lack of conviction that I feel.Are you ok if you lose all your money and are forced into the street , with no food to live with?Theoretically,I can see me getting accustomed to this as well.But ofcourse I atleast agree that this would be a low life and something I would not profess or strive for.
All I am saying is I can get along even in much worse conditions but that should not mean to say that I should not strive for better possibilities.Demands at work are fulfilled as the organization would ensure that.What one needs to consciously work towards is to enhance life outside work - Family life , Bigger family life , social life , inner aspirations , art etc.
Read more , do more photography , make one movie , make some money , pay off the housing loan.
